little by little

I now only have 9 days until the big day. I've been working hard on the sorting of things through our house as we are preparing to move. I've also slowly been trying to digest all of my reading material for my exam. I absolutely cannot wait until this test is done, over with, and out of the picture. I have never been so frustrated over a silly test...

Today when I left Skyar at preschool, one of her friends mother's and I were talking about the move. She told me that when she had explained to her daughter that Skylar would be moving, she burst into non-stop tears. It breaks my heart to see the great friends Skylar will be leaving here; I can only hope and pray that she will meet some lasting friends in our new town.

Children are like small adults to me. They still have feelings and emotions just as we do; they still attach themselves to others as we do; and they love as we do as well. I love watching my daughter as she has grown so much in the school she is in. I feel like everyday she grows and learns so much more. She shows so much affection to the individuals she loves, and it makes me proud to see the happiness she gives out to everyone.

All of this makes me so nervous to leave our comfort zone in this town. It's going to be such a huge change. Hopefully by taking small steps, little by little, we will grow to love our new home and friends just as we did here.

Looking for love

Trying to find true love in the world is never an easy thing to do, especially as a single mother. Since I've become a mother I had a few interests in men..however they didn't seem to work out. 

If you are a single mother, I'm sure you know exactly what I'm talking about. You either find someone who is so much fun to go out with and do things together with, however when you put that person into the mix of your already formed family involving your child; you know that person is definitely not who you are supposed to be with.

Or you may find someone who seems just perfect. That person might treat you better than any other person has before, they might be the one who treats you to nice dinners, takes you to the movies, writes songs for you, and is wonderful with your child. However, you may still find a reason why you cannot be with them.

I've been in all of these situations, in fact 1 year ago today, I said yes to a marriage proposal. Everything at that time seemed just perfect. But here I am today, not with that person, and I am still incredibly happy just being mommy:)

So mommies out there, be picky, just because they may seem absolutely perfect for you, does not mean that is the perfect situation for your life with your child. Stay focused on being a mom, the rest will come when it is supposed to.